I haven't talked about my mother all that much on this blog because she wanted to keep her cancer private. I had talked about prepping for a golf game to celebrate her getting over her second bout with cancer, but that turned out to be more hope than reality. I guess about two months ago now her cancer came back with a vengeance. The initial assesment was that she had about two to four months to live. So I went to see her, and my brother and I played a round of golf with her.
It will likely be her last game of golf. When I left South Carolina the last time I had resigned myself to the notion that I would never see her again. As the day approached for my sister to go it was clear that her condition had gotten a lot worse. Having gone through this type of thing before I knew that having more family around to share the load would be beneficial. So I arranged to come out there next week, then hearing more news bumped the flight up to tomorrow. Now, it seems that tomorrow may be too late. And I find myself nervous and wanting to go right now to be with her. I understand that poeple fight to live until they decide it's the right time to go, and I don't want her living in more pain than she has to so that she can see me one last time. Man, it's tough to write this.
Anyway, I certainly wouldn't be the man I am today without all of the love and support my mother has given me. She is a very strong woman who is both pragmatic and effective, while all the while retaining a ceaselessly positive attitude. She sets an example for us all and it will be up to the three of us kids to try and bring that combination of postivity and pragmatism to the world as her legacy.
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